Disclaimer: Tarot is not an exact science. As where these readings may resonate with you, and can even be beneficial to your development, this should ultimately be viewed as a form of entertainment.
Happy New Year! Habari Gani? Imani! It’s Capricorn season! To usher in the new year, each month I will perform a 4 card spread to help you all align yourselves for the upcoming month. I hope that you find these readings to be helpful, and the insight provided in this post encourages you all the be the best versions of you that you need to be. Have a wonderful 2019, may you find the healing you are looking for.
What to Release – Protection:
New Year, New You! What will change though, what prompted this development in your identity. 2018 was filled with experiences, people, and things that were meant to break us. Toxic relationships, toxic living situations, toxic coping mechanisms. Along the way we’ve developed certain “ways” about us. Now don’t get me wrong, many of us we’re forced into survival mode, so I understand why we’ve developed maladaptive patterns. However, escaping from the job we hate by getting drunk/high every weekend is dangerous. Using sex as a hobby and dating to run from the lonely feeling won’t do anything but make us hate the person we can’t escape (ourselves). Sometimes we have no choice but to have unhealthy coping mechanisms, it’s possible that all throughout 2018 that’s all you were capable of. As you enter this new year though, you must understand that the energy is changing, therefore you must change along with it. Unhealthy coping mechanisms may have gotten you through 2018, but in 2019, a year defined by healing, old patterns won’t get you far.
What to Work On – Regenerate
When lizards are being attacked they can risk losing a limb so as to get away. It’s a loss but they are capable of regeneration, and metaphorically, so are you. Your unhealthy forms of coping and surviving are the limbs you need to let go of, they might of served you while you were being broken down, but they will not support you in your healing. I challenge you to redefine how you cope with your pain, in 2019 I ask that you radically care for yourselves. Coping only gets you but so far my loves, it’ll help you survive but it will be Self Care that resonates with Healing. Allow yourself to love yourself, the Universe gives your permission to do so. You can’t keep dragging the baggage with you, but I understand letting go is hard. Sometimes we become so interconnected with the people and things that have traumatized us, that we don’t know who we are without it. In 2019 you might feel a little naked without your limb(s), but you’ll feel so much lighter without the baggage. Through nudity we can reinvent ourselves, try on new closes, realize we need to leave the fedora with Alicia Keys circa 2000. I don’t know who you are becoming, but I do know it’s your birthright to become exactly who you want to be.
New Energies to Accompany You – Patience
Y’all, you did not become a “New You” at the start of the New Year. That’s not how it works, you are the person that 2018 (and years before) have made you. You do not have to be a different person right now, you don’t need to know exactly what you want to accomplish just yet. Give yourself time, it’s unfair to yourself to expect yourself to be anything more than the result of your past year. Be excited for the person to come, but take this month to appreciate the person you are RIGHT NOW. Take some time to reflect on your year. What happened to you this year? How did it make you feel? How did it impact you? Are these traits/behaviors that you should carry with you into 2019? If they aren’t, how can you let go of these traits and behaviors? Be realistic of the time it will take, any great project takes time to develop. Rome was built over time, with set backs and hiccups. Be open to the experience, be open to healing, practice self care, be kind to yourself, be patient with yourself, be loving to yourself.
Challenges to be Aware of – Ritual
The biggest challenge facing you this month are your traditions. Some practices are positive, I am developing a tradition of seeing movies monthly with my friends because it helps me laugh and relax. But, the tradition of alcohol abuse to get through a toxic school environment is something I had to leave in 2017-2018. We all have our habits, we all have developed a specific way to get through life. If I haven’t said this enough, I’ll say it once more, 2019 IS ABOUT YOUR HEALING! This means that you really need to look at your coping mechanisms, you really need to analyze your behaviors, you need to be critical of what you associate yourself with. Toxic is not personality trait, it is a adjective to describe behaviors. It’s ok to look at yourself and identify the toxic behaviors that you exhibit, but what we ain’t about to bring into 2019 is the false belief that those behaviors are permanent parts of who we are. Codependent, Emotional Manipulative, and “Anger Issues” are all the result of experiences (sometimes chemical imbalances, in which case seek professional help) we’ve had. If you are codependent you may not feel as though you’re capable of being on your own, you must work through that to heal. If you are emotionally manipulative you may feel like you don’t have any control over situations/people/things, it isn’t healthy to control other people, you must move past that. If you are angry, I’ve learned that anger is an “empowering” way to feel hurt. Let yourself be hurt, find healthy ways to express and work through hurt, we are leaving toxic behaviors behind us.
Imani means Faith, every year, the principle of Kwanzaa is Faith for the 1st of every January. My loves, I believe in you. I believe you are so capable, I believe you are so worthy. Go forth and take the year you’re entitled to.